In three of the past seven days I ate less than one meal. Combined. I kinda feel like that is a bad thing.

Thoughts as of Late

I think that sometimes I over complicate my life. I take something small and blow it out of proportion until it is such a large problem that it is often very unmanageable.

Today I realized two very important things.
1. I rely on some people too much and I rely on others too little.
2. I change myself a lot to adapt to the different people and circumstances that I am around.

I've known these things for a long time now, I just didn't want to acknowledge them.

And now I have.

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Right now I'm blogging.

I think that sometimes the biggest problems are right in front of everyone's faces, but they just choose to not see it. They choose not to see it because living in their perfect happy world keeps them safe, and acknowledging anything less than that would ruin it. Acknowledging someone's difference would destroy the illusion.

I find that it's hard for people to listen. Moving one's focus from themselves to someone else seems to be one of the hardest things for people to accomplish. I feel like I can do that pretty well. But, one of the hardest things for me is to confront people. I can listen all day long, but when it comes to confrontation, I just can't do it. I've spent many a night sleeping on the couch because it was easier for me to just remove myself from the situation rather than try and face it. I think it's the same thing. Maybe when people start listening to me, I'll start being more confrontational. But, that just seems like a lose-lose situation for everyone.

Colors

This is something I think about from time to time. What if we didn't see the same colors? Sure we call them the same name, like green or blue or even purple. But what if my orange is your black and your yellow is my red? How would anyone ever know? What if it's true? What if no one else sees the world like I do? What if my beautiful red, orange, pink, and yellow sunset is someone's green, blue, teal, and aqua sunset? What if the sky isn't really blue?